I knew this was coming, my behavior in the past few months has considerably deteriorated to the point where I started getting abusive and loud mouthed, something that has gradually happened and what I am not really proud about.

Admitting to myself that I have been wrong has been the hardest part for me yet, but doing that has opened up several channels that I could not have pursued without accepting my mistakes. I really apologize to whoever I may have caused hassles and want to ensure that I have been the one who was wrong, so please  forgive me if possible.

There are several things which have been going on that should not been happening, several things which I said that have made me so humiliated that I should have given up long time back, but there comes a point in life where you just look at your behavior and cringe that this was something you did.

This is what has happened to me, I cringe at my behavior, I hate myself for putting my friends, family and others through some of my most disgusting moments in life.

There are things that happen and I know my apologizing would not change your outlook about me, but I am duly ashamed and want to put forth my very sincere apologies if you have been disgusted at me, I truly understand your feelings and want to sincerely say that I am truly very sorry.

I want to take a break, take a break and be alone and introspect my life, look deep inside to see what is wrong, go someplace where I don’t have contact with anyone, correct my mistakes and start all over again, become a new person, something that I have never thought about doing for a long time.

I want to go to someplace to find peace within myself, leave everything and go away, if I will comeback is what I cannot say, but yes I do want to leave everything, take penance and improve my life from the mess it has become.

I just can’t do it right now, I have a few commitments to complete before I take a break, once they are done, I would just want to take a step back and think about what I did and what I need to do in order to correct what I have been doing.

It’s sad to say but I would miss everything, however I do not want to embarrass anyone, anymore, my commitments will be continued even when I am on a break, I will assure you that I would take care of everything before I get there.

If you are reading this and I have angered you in anyway, I am really very sorry about it, all I ask you is to forgive me.

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